Peasant!

The answer to any question that we have for the government is the same:

"Shut up peasant!"

Evil Politicians

Turns out that evil politicians are using global warming

(Carbon taxes)
-to enslave the entire world

Can't say I'm all that surprised

When I Close My Eyes

Sometimes...when I close my eyes

I see the universe

Or at least our solar system

If You're Reading This...

If you're reading this,

you might be on an inward journey too

Or maybe you like my writing

or you might think I'm unique

Or you wonder about me

Regardless, it appears we are exploring this uncharted ground together

Children of the Earth

Why are we not all playing and laughing?

That's what we're supposed to do

because we are children of the earth

Jerk

I think I'm beginning to be less of a jerk than I used to be

I'm not sure if being a jerk is genetic or a result of a rough childhood

It doesn't matter, because one can always work at becoming a better person

What I Wish For Twitter

I wish people would be more real

and reveal more of their inner-selves on twitter

Strange Habit

I'm a fucked up fucker in a fucked up world

who has a strange habit of telling the truth

A Sense of Humor

Most Americans are shit poor

This is a fascist dictatorship

We're all fucked

A sense of humor will save us all

F___ The New World Order ...

Fuck the New World Order!

Fuck the Illuminati!

FUCK THE NEW WORLD ORDER!

FUCK THE ILLUMINATI!

Kindness

In a war of kindness

There are only winners

The World Crumbles Around Me

The world crumbles around me

I feel frustrated and pained

I'm lying on my bed

Hoping that I may escape all of this in dreams

Just Another...

Just another pathetic lonely fucker on the internet

Transcendence

Nature-Eternal Poetry-Indifferent to humans-So imposing-So majestic-So full of potential-Ecstatic-emotions-Transcendence

A Touch of Kindness

Even a touch of kindness

-Catapults the recipient (or the giver)

-into an alternate dimension of infinite bliss.

Pool of Sorrow

I'm trying not to drown in this pool of sorrow.
Why must I be clownishly giggly or depressed?

It's Not Because of Me

It's not because of me

-that you remain in misery

It's because your heart

-is not free

But is, rather,

-a prisoner of history

I'm...

I'm as lonely as hell

And so are you

Is What People See A Tapestry or the Real Me?

Is what people see the real me?

Is it a travesty? A tapestry?

I am not even sure if I possess the honesty to see the real me

-if there is one

Rain / Emotions

Rain / Emotions

- At first, they drizzle

- Then, they come in a torrent

My Tears Taste Sweet

Life has been so full of pain and sorrow;

yet my tears taste sweet and my laughter wells up within me.

Paradox is everywhere.

Into the Sea

Why should I strive for reality - when what others seek is fantasy?

No - I will join the majority-in their happy march Into the Sea.

America-Teetering

America

-Teetering on the edge of disaster

-The answer is simple & clear: Mercy

-for self and all others. Why must we complicate things?

Poem in Progress-Infinite Mercy

I fell back into limitless soft green space

-that surrounded me with infinite mercy

The answers to all of my questions came in feelings

Not words

I am not opposed to the idea that the universe is merciful

-Or that it has soul.

I ventured into the mysterious

In spite of my fears

-I felt cradled ...

Lashes have no impact on me

-I am suspended in kindness

Illusions Dropped

The illusions dropped

one by one

Around me

there was only desolation.

Lies

The lies I usually believe, sustain me. The truth is just too painful to accept full-time.

Moods are LIke a Giant Heavy Carnival Ride

Moods are like a giant heavy carnival ride

that stands suspended in air:

A pendulum that swings between joy and sorrow.

No one knows why.

Refuse - to let - The ecstasy of this day- get away

Refuse - to let - The ecstasy of this day- get away

Equal Rights

In order to say everyone should have equal rights, shouldn't we, at least, really believe that?After all, privilege might be the first casualty when, and if, people get "equal rights."

Last Night - More Dreams

Last night - more nonsensical...meaningful dreams - Filled with insights - I don't have the courage to analyze

Being Together Brings Us Joy

Animals...people

Flowing

Our souls merge

Love holds us together

Brings us joy

Life's Delicious Beauty

A colorful cake flowing with well-crafted icing reminds me of life's delicious beauty.

Sadness and Joy Do Their Usual Dance

It's Sunday

I walk...feeling vaguely forlorn, yet hopeful

The gentleness of a breeze and of birds helps

There is no one else

The stringed banner flags flap indifferently above the car lot

Sadness and joy do their usual dance

I am the floor that they dance on

I don't know how much more of this I can take

Oh, but everyone is taking this

So I'll stop complaining

Did this universe just happen?

Did this universe just happen?

What I Say, Could Be An Illusion

How I feel, is a mystery. 

What I think, might be a delusion. 

What I say, could be an illusion. 

There is only silence now.

I Just Realized

OMG

I just realized that some of the people I subscribe to on Youtube are douche bags.

We're All Fucked Up Together

I'm fucked up.

You're fucked up.

We're all fucked up together.

It's ok.

Who's Invited to the Party Called America?

I just realized how sadly ironic it is to wish people Happy 4th of July

-when most Americans are not invited to the Party called America.

America is a bit of a mind fuck.

What Type of Clown Am I?

I looked at some pictures taken of me.

Even in comic disguise,

my eyes were sad.

I just realized -

I might be the crying on the inside type of clown!

Clown Mystery

I sometimes wonder if clowns have tiny furniture (just like they have tiny cars).

Sleepless Nights - Dreaming of Clown Shoes

I've spent many a sleepless nights dreaming...dreaming of wearing clown clothes. 

But, most of all, it's the shoes. I want those shoes!

Of course, I want the clown horn too.

Note to self:

Buy clown shoes

Complicated Mess

My computer: Complicated mess. 

It needs to be cleared of so much garbage 

- and stream-lined

...just like me.

What a Fricken Revelation

I think I have reached a point where I don't worship anyone.

What a fricken revelation!

Realizing That Most of What We Believe and Do is Sh*t

Realizing that most of what we believe and do is sh*t, does not mean that we should give up; 

it just means we need new beliefs and actions

I Need a Clown Outfit

I need a clown outfit

To match my

Tearing-eye clown self

The shoes...The shoes!

Why My Father Was So Unhappy

He cried.

He cried!

He cried!!

Inside.

May We All Leave Our Prisons Today

May we all leave our prisons today.

When Our Old Self Crumbles

What we fear, is

When our old self crumbles, 

Will there be a new self there to replace it?

Or will we just remain a pile of rubble? 

Takes guts.

The Day Has Come

The day has come.

Whatever America has been for the last 25 or so years,

it can no longer be.

The poor, the disadvantaged, the sick, the handicapped, the old

-all need equality and opportunity.

Now that there is almost no middle-class,

most people are included in that group.

Peace to all.

Justice to all.

Serenity to all.

America is Totally Fucked.

After 30 years of neocon politics,

we're fucked beyond belief.

Seriously, it's time to stop denying it.

The greed, selfishness, and delusion that masqueraded as individualism has come home to roost.

Now, there is only a mass of slaves and a few slave owners.

In-between, there is just an ignorant bunch of "police".

I would like to say that I believe that Americans will work together to make things better, but I secretly know they won't.

The area that I live in, southern California, is already starting to suck beyond belief.

Complex Analysis of America

We're screwed!

So, What Are We Going To Do About That?

America, 

It's great if you're rich, attractive, healthy, thin, and privileged.

Otherwise, 

You're screwed. 

So,

What are we going to do about that?

America-An American's Opinion

America

It sucks a little bit more every day.

People are poor.

It's run by psychotic killers and sociopaths.

Corruption is the only constant.

If we get the courage of the Iranians,

then America will become what it's meant to be:

Prosperous and free.

They Resent the F..k Out of You

This is what happens when your insight and knowledge surpass your beer guzzling friends:

They resent the f..k out of you.

Time for new friends.

Feeling Morose

Feeling morose

over the seeming failure of Americans to have courage

in an age that genuinely requires it.

When did we become a nation of gigantic wimps?

At Breaking Point

At my breaking point. Broken. No...reborn. A new start. Feel at peace.

Being and Becoming

1. Even though our experiences mold us, we should forget and forgive as much as possible - move on - and become The Sculptors of Our Own Lives.17 minutes ago from web
2. Why do people keep doing the same thing and expect different results?about 2 hours ago from web
3. My wish for everyone today is that they act as individuals and go against their gang at least once. (We all are part of some type of gang.)about 2 hours ago from web
4. I sometimes wonder if the aggression it took to get this far is the aggression that will prevent us from getting any further.about 12 hours ago from web

Nauseating Truths

Nauseating truths gnawing at me. 

Dropping illusions one by one.  

Nothing remaining but vague yearnings.

This is one messed up world.

I Am...

I am an adult. 

I am a child. 

I am a man. 

I am a woman. 

I am an angel. 

I am a demon. 

I am all of these things. 

I am none of these things.

Angels and Demons

People are looking for angels and demons everywhere. Yet, the mirror contains both.

I March to the Beat of Mediocrity

I march in time to the beat of mediocrity drummed by Pop Culture.

I dare not venture into myself or ideas, for that would disrupt Pop Culture

Painful sounding words do not imply depression

Painful sounding words do not imply depression

Words explore all territories

And release all psychological prisoners

Born Again Virgins

Born again virgins

Just STFUP!

It's So Phuken Obvious

It's so phuken obvious

You're alone so often because you're a precious perfectionistic piece of ant sh*t

You'd have more friends if you'd stop expecting an impossible ideal of perfection in people

When you are far from perfect yourself

Crappy Childhoods

Crappy Childhoods

-the gift that keeps on giving

Whatever

Life will knock that smug grin off of your face

-maybe even before death does.

Sometimes Life Makes Me Want to Puke

Sometimes the shear revoltingness of life makes me want to puke.

Who Am I Kidding?

Who am I kidding?

The pain I carry is from my childhood.

A childhood that was full of little horror shows.

And, now, it stalks me and it unsettles my nerves and peace of mind.

I hate that sometimes.

What's to eat?

Questions We Ask

Where are you?

Where were you?

Where are you?!

Where were you?!

I guess you just don't, and didn't, care.

The Last Necessary War Was WWII

The last necessary war was WWII.

Enough said.

Farewell My Porcupine Concubine

It was a sad end to a brief, painful and prickly relationship. "Farewell My Porcupine Concubine"-soon appearing at a book store near you.

Don't Kill the Joy in a Child

We should not kill the joy in a child

no matter what happened to us

A child should laugh at the joy of being alive

and not regret being born

Only a world of adults whose joy was murdered

could pass this curse on to the next generation

Let's break this now

And let this generation have the joy that was killed in so many of us

The fact that you're not here

The fact that you're not here,

is all the evidence I need

-that you don't care.

You keep telling me how much you like me

but I'm not sure now.

You're not here, not because you don't want to love me.

but because you can't love me.

Stop - Really, Stop It!

Just because life has phuked your soul, it doesn't give you the right to phuk the souls of your children.

Let's Just Feed Them Already!

It's not complicated.

There's no shortage of food.

There are hungry people.

So, let's just feed them already!

The Heart Reforms Itself

The heart is like the robot in the Terminator movie. 

It keeps getting shattered and, then, it reforms itself - just like it was before.

Obsessive Compulsive

Twitter is O.C.D. central.

I'm aware of this.

I'm taking a step back.

And, now, I'm laughing.

I'll enjoy it more now.

Now, that I'm not obsessing about it.

I Made the Decision Before I Got Here

This is it.  This is me.

I lay myself in front of you - to examine.

The blemishes and flaws are plain to see.

I made the decision before I got here -

To be with you.

So, now, it's up to you.

But, before you decide, just remember:

This is really me.

What? Me Maudlin?

What? Me Maudlin?
Dictionary.com
Maudlin-tearfully or weakly emotional; foolishly sentimental: a maudlin story of a little orphan and her lost dog.

I Wonder

I wonder why our comments are so very similar when we are so very different.

Wait a minute

I guess that means we're not so very different.

Dissolve to Consciousness

Dissolve to consciousness. Images, thoughts, music, emotions swirl in my head. Coffee is the only thing that will calm this whirlwind.

Who Gives a Shit?

There is no one who gives a shit.

The Door to Her Heart Remained Closed

Though she wanted so very much to give to only one,

The door to her heart remained closed

Who knows why - it could have been her cold mother

Or her cheating ex

She even found a man who loved her with his gentle heart - which was open

After years of being with her,

he grew lonely...weary

Of being the only one there

This is Where I Vent

Actually, I'm not particularly depressed.

This blog is one of the reasons.

It helps me release the stuff that could drive me nuts.

Fading Beauty

The clanging, honking, and voices mix in the acrid Los Angeles air.  Tears caused by disappointment and poison fill people's eyes.  The fading beauty of countless starlets matching that of the city.

I Forgive You

I forgive you father

You were just a person

Struggling to make sense of this strange world

I am far from perfect myself

and life is a lot harder than I thought it'd be

It's not just because you've passed on that I forgive you

It's because I realize, now, that it's not that you felt too little, but that you felt too much

And your heart just couldn't take what your eyes had seen and the experiences you'd had

Your path hadn't been a smooth one

The memory I have now is of your wonderful sense of humor and generous spirit

I love you, wherever you are

I will remain, your son - forever

This Boy Was Never Allowed To Be a Boy

The shouting started early that day

The boy covered his ears

His father was drunk again

and demanding that he make soup

The shouting continued for about an hour

Little pieces of the boy kept breaking off/dying

This boy was never allowed to be a boy

And was never really able to become an adult

Insane-I Am

I feel so alive today

I'm on fire!

Give me a challenge

I will take it!

Give me a punk

I will punch him!

I did not come to this planet to be a fricken slave

or to kiss ass

Look at me momma

I can fly!

Sometimes, When I Read My Own Words, I Think I Sound Like a Crackhead

Sometimes, when I read my own words, I think I sound like a crackhead
Oh well...

Hazy House of Mirrors

I walk through the hazy house of mirrors that is my life
I see reflections obscurely
There are others in this house
Sometimes our reflections mesh - if only briefly
At those times I feel less alone

Oh, what's this?
I'm alone again
My Zen training is kicking in now...
I will see you again when the sadness lifts

What is this about?

Sometimes people pleasantly surprise me; often they don't.

I can't sleep

I can't sleep. I went from being really happy to being in the dumps again.

Sometimes I feel like I'm an alien in a human body. I feel so little affiliation with the human race tonight.

Different Day - Different Mood

I feel a lot more cheerful than yesterday.

A new day. A new mood.

Why try to be real and make friends?

I'm feeling sort of down tonight.
Not like I want to hop off the nearest tall structure
Or cut my veins,
but just facing the reality of how I have spent so much time trying to make friends with people who don't give a shit

That's probably pretty common in this world

Layer upon layer of scam, sham, disaster, and mockery: this emotional barbed wire and other shit that is referred to as life still remains enigmatically interesting...somehow.

Hello.  This is my new blog.  It is attached to my twitter account (TrannyOnInside).

I reached a point where twitter just couldn't contain my compulsive writing habit.